I decided to take on one more thing to keep me busy. My friend Joanna writes articles at an online feminist magazine, and I’ve signed on to help her to edit some of the weekly articles. I did my first copy edit last night and it was pretty cool. I just sat in my bed, drank some peppermint tea, paid some bills and edited a draft that’s pending publication. It felt great to actually put my degree (Literature and Gender Studies) to use in real life. I’m so used to just reading novels and commenting on outrageous misogyny in the world that i feel like I wasted 4 years of study on nothing. But it’s not nothing. It’s all important stuff and to be able to get involved in a collective that writes about it every day is just magical. Wish me luck! Maybe I’ll write a piece for them one day =)
I feel like I always hide from religion because most of my friends are pretty agnostic or atheist. But to be honest I really am a proud Christian. I believe in God and Jesus Christ and I love to read my psalms. I believe in showing love and kindness to all people as we are all God’s creatures. At the same time I sort of use The Lord’s name in vain a lot when I’m angry. I should stop that…but anyway I don’t think I’m some bible thumper or anything but I definitely believe in God and I just haven’t been bonding with him enough lately. I say my prayers almost every night, as I have since I was old enough to speak. I talk to God sometimes and pray for my friends and family. I just dove under my covers and thanked him for the roof over my head on this temperamental Spring night. It felt nice to know or at least think he had a hand in this. And I get it. He also had a hand in people who are without basic necessities. I believe he’s responsible for everything, and I don’t know why. The rest comes from our own vibes that we put out into the world; our own values and energies.
Anyway, I can’t answer why I feel this way, but I know he’s on my side and I love him. Or her! Who knows? It’s nice to have a guardian angel helping you keep your head together.